Unspoken-ness On Death and Dying, On Life and Living
Noun: A series of thoughts or words that are never spoken out loud, yet have meaning and purpose and value.
Unspoken-ness. It is a condition I have pondered for many months now. Maybe longer. Sometimes unspoken words hurt too much to say out loud. There’s an underlying fear that if I speak them, they become real and sometimes reality is too much to bear.
Other times unspoken words are hidden with the intent of protecting the listener. Sometimes they are memories, glimpses of a time past.
Unspoken-ness is a practice. It is polished and effortless because it has been with me for so long. I wonder about these words and thoughts and ponderings even before I understand them. I work through them over time, realigning the content with the reality—fact checking my heart with my head.
We simply hold these words for whatever reason, yet they never really pass away. They stay with us. They speak even if unspoken. They have meaning without definition. They plant seeds without harvest.